Finding myself

About a month ago when I started this blog, I also decided to go see a therapist. At the time I was worried I might be dealing with some "post partum depression" issues. In reality, I'm just a mom. A sleep and me time deprived mom. Maybe there is some ppd mixed in there, but its not the main issue. 

My therapist asked me when the last time I did anything for myself was. I couldn't respond! It had been almost 3 years since I thought about myself. He asked me to at least once a week do something I enjoy for myself. That's the reason I decided to learn to drive, continue blogging and find ways to improve my health. Those are things I deserve, need, and want to do. I'm not here to copy or imitate anyone. I'm simply finding myself.

No one is my inspiration, just myself. What life has taught me inspires me to keep pushing. I'm relearning that its ok to  put myself before others. That wanting something for me is ok. Independence is ok. Getting out there and chasing my dreams is ok. 

It doesn't make me a bad mother to want to do something for myself. In the end when I reach those dreams my kids benefit. They'll always be #1! But I'm appreciating myself and what I have to offer before I put myself out there. 

I'm slowly cutting people out of my life. You know those people who all they do is bring you down. Those people who can't see you doing well because they want nothing but to knock you down. The people who don't wish upon your success, but your failure. I'm getting rid of those who thrive off petty drama, and like you one day only to talk sh*t behind your back the next. Those with a sense of entitlement in my life...I want them all gone! 

If I change I'm not going to apologize. We change every time we grow. I won't apologize for working to find me. Good day! :)