Going through the motions.

Although I have been pretty active with my social media posting quite a bit in the past week, I've been very quiet in real life. I'm a bit withdrawn from those in my life. I feel like everyone is fighting a battle and I don't need to add myself to them. I admit this isn't necessarily the right way to go about things, but it's the way I am dealing with things...by staying to myself. 

Currently, there's another wave of changes. My son's surgery has me all bent out of shape for starters. I'm worried that this won't be the solve it thing. I'm worried that this is unnecessary. Not only that, but we're also about to take another HUGE leap of faith in second place only to our move to Florida. I'm genuinely scared. I have good feelings and I'm staying positive, but I'm seriously scared of how the next month will turn out...possibly the next 3 months. 

I just have no energy left to pretend I'm not stressed or worried or scared. I'm embracing my feelings. They remind me I'm human. It's helps me, so that I don't snap. I have nothing to say to anyone. I think it's because spiritually and emotionally something is changing. As an indivudual I think I am evolving. Whether it's a good or bad thing, I'm not certain. 

As a mother I am struggling. I'm learning to make myself a priority. A battle I have been fighting since the beginning of time. I've had a short fuse the past few days and I've buried myself in reading. I just helps to disconnect. I always aim to keep tube time to a minimum, but let me tell you that it has been saving my sanity. Don't worry they don't watch some pointless show that teaches them anything, and if they did? Well I'm just glad I got to use the bathroom alone or cook a meal without being asked 7373836 questions in the time it takes to make a peanut butter jelly.