I Choose Not to be a SAHM.

As mothers we love our children beyond explainable measures. Some of us are able to stay at home and raise them, but others are not. Now that's not to say that moms like myself don't raise their children. Believe me when I say I very much raise my children. I still kiss boo boos, make meals, and read bedtime stories just like any other mom would. Motherhood looks different for us all. I commend the mom that stays home as it is so tough. To compare it to a full time job is low balling. Sahm's work much more than 40 hours per week. I also commend the mom that has to leave her children to work for a living for whatever reason. 

I'm somewhere in between. I live both sides of that spectrum. However, it's not because I have to as much as it's because I've chosen to. See the thing is, I have chosen to not be a sahm. Quite honestly our financial situation would probably be better if I did stay home, but that's not what I want for myself. I love being a mother to my boys, and I devote my heart and soul into raising them. As much as I love mothering my children there are plenty of times when if I didn't have work I would loose my shit. 

Motherhood can be lonely. I wish I could conduct a survey on how much adult interaction moms get. You'll probably notice that it's minimal. Whether it is because your friends don't have children and they just don't get it or because you're so busy raising kids it's hard to get out. Work is my outlet. Work is where I leave my problems and home life at the door. It's my break, and I feel very strongly about not letting it go. 

I've been home with the kids for four days straight as their dad has been doing some training and oh my gosh I'm starting to feel cornered. The home life isn't for me full time. I feel like I'm catering to everyone except myself. The weight of the world feels like it's on my  shoulders and it doesn't help that I haven't see their dad for 2 days. It seems like he's been working around the clock (he's only been coming home to sleep.) 

I just want say: mommies you are all my heroes. You inspire me everyday. Your honesty, your deduction. Hang in there! We got this! "The days are long, but the years are short." 

Xoxo