Where do I begin? This event left me speechless. It was such a healing, liberating experience. It opened my eyes and made me realize that in this crazy journey we women call motherhood I am NOT alone. I was able to see deeper than that tough front us mothers put up. I was even able to open up to complete strangers and felt understood by them.
This particular graphic takes me back to a couple moments that morning. We listened to Samantha Bice speak on how us mothers seek perfection. We're constantly in a war with ourselves and others over whats the perfect or correct way to parent. Reality is that there is no perfect way...perfect is what works for your family and you. She spoke about how we're so hard on ourselves and we should be happy to celebrate the good things without celebrating yet finding some flaw. She brought so much of the unspoken to light. We're all mothers. We should stick together.
I was also able to connect with some pretty amazing women. I met Monica who I knew briefly over IG and had spoken to through email before coming down to Florida. I also connected with women from local organizations and some great things will be evolving from that. I of course met THE MRS.BWF January Harshe. I was so star struck. She is such a beautiful soul. Her journey is SO inspiring. I love her. I truly do! My heart holds a special place for her.
The Earth Mama Angel Baby Harmony Circle was the most emotional. They had us pick random numbers from a basket and we were grouped according to our numbers. Each group had a box of sand with which we would write a word or words describing something holding us back and we would speak about it and then erase...as a sign of letting go. I opened up about my inner most feelings. My mommy guilt and my resentment. I am my biggest critic. Even if I am doing things right I still think I got it all wrong. I wish my births had gone different and wish I could have more children so I could have my healing birth yet I cant because my SO has a vasectomy. I resent him for getting it and myself for not stopping him or at least speaking my feelings. Yet all though I am so hard on myself not one mama there judged me or shamed me. I received nothing but support.
And so BWF Orlando was so worth it. I am so glad I was able to attend, and I am so happy for the connections I made.
