Against ALL my odds.

Remember a couple posts back how I said that not having EVER been behind the wheel of a car; I had decided it was finally time to start learning. Well I must say this week has been full of little accomplishments taking me to my ultimate goal of getting my license and owning my own car. 

It has not been a walk in the park. My anxiety can sometimes get the best of me and cause me to think of all the things that can go wrong therefore, keeping me from taking the chance. I won't say I was great the first time I got behind that wheel. I was shaking and scared. I didn't feel like I could do it. I wanted to walk away. I felt like I was exposing myself to something I was not capable of doing.

I sat there in fear, but I said, "fuck it. If I don't do this now I never will." So I did it. I took control of myself and took a chance. Despite my fear, getting it done gave me a feeling of freedom. The same happened when I was exposed to driving on the highway. Although I was afraid I took that chance and when I got off that exit I felt free, accomplished, like I had just beat a giant. 

This week has been wonderful. I have opened new opportunities for myself. I freed myself from the anxiety that kept me depending on others. I now can move forward and become myself again. 

I'm doing this for me. Because I matter. A healthy, happy mom...makes for healthy, happy children. FUCK YOU ANXIETY!